Sometimes the all-or-nothing tendencies that want to run rampant in the creative parts of my life get me confused. One teeny example: yesterday I was fed up with the sheer paltryness (may have just invented a word right there) of my own writing and was ready to vow never to let another word see the light of day -- unless I was sure to the millionth degree that it was the most right, most perfect, most impossible-accurate-to-the-point-where-it-gives-you-shivers word for the job.
Today, I am thinking about signing up for NaBloPoMo, a method guaranteed to provide quantity of words but not necessarily quality.
What is wrong with me? Oh to be sure and stay sure!
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Staish -- Yippee!! Manly Mousse Date!! *gulp* Oh my! I hope my little memory didn't put scarifying thoughts into your mind :Z.
Interesting. I don't have the all-or-nothing mindset when it comes to creative things. At least I don't consciously stop creating because I'm not satisfied with the quality of the creation(s). I keep on writing even when I'm fully aware that it's complete rubbish. Spiritually, though, I do tend to slack off when I perceive the quality (or even the quantity) of the time to be...not up to snuff. Why don't I just keep on having that time even when it's not very good? This is a great mystery to me.
ReplyDeleteYou are in the process of falling off the wagon. I am here with a pixellated intervention for you, Danielle:
ReplyDeleteStop being super introspective.
It's bad for your health.
Oh, I totally understand how you feel - being perfectionistic can be so depressing, hey? Do you find that when you're in that frame of mind and people are kind and encouraging, you feel like they're just trying to make you feel better and it's difficult to take it at face value? I do... or maybe it's just me :P Love you! xox
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